What I deserve
I feel toxicated by the love I love the most. After all the things that we've been through, the least thing that she could do is saying "enough" to me. Not leave me suffering with the thought that I can still fix this relationship. Leaving me to play with her shadows she left behind, with the word "come back later" and "you should focus on how I want to be kept" without giving me feedback at all. Every single day, I woke up with so much pain in my chest. Burdening my mind with all the thoughts about her. Some of my mind that still hoping she's the one for me, fighting my other mind that saying it's enough already, your heart deserves to rest. Sometimes, I feel like I would give up anything to travel inside her mind, to see if she still remembers all the good things that we did together or the reasons why she didn't send me back that ring and keeps me believe she's still waiting for me. Or maybe I'll know whether she just doesn'...
